When everything was collapsing, when there was something wrong in my life, something wrong with me or my surrounding I always have known I could search for some backup and you will cheer me up. It\'s not like that any more. I am aware that I do not mean anything in your life. I could not believe it, I did not want to put up with the fact that I am no longer someone important. That I am a pure zero now and it is not likely to happen, that one day I will be someone more than just a passerby. There should be an equality mark between the word \"Me\" and locution \"No one\".

World is no longer the same. World is not a safe place when you are sure that there is no one waiting for you with his arms wide open. There is nothing to comeback, there is nowhere to go and nothing to do. There is nothing 100% certain, certainly.

This whole fucking note is pathetic. I am sorry and I feel ashamed that some of you will read that, but since there is no one to confess, this is the only right place to spread my thoughts.