15:22 / 18.06.2006
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komentarz (1) | moze mi sie tylko wydaje, ale moja rodzina chyba mnie olewa od pewnego dluzszego czasu - nie dzwonia juz jak kiedys, nie odzywaja sie jak ja sie nie odezwe i tak troche im obojetny jestem. rozumiem ze jest slub mojego brata i wogole zajebiscie duzo sie dzieje ale kurde miloby bylo czasem z nimi pogadac a nie slyszec czesc, co robisz? a nic tak dzwonie bo mam slaba baterie w telefonie i chce ja rozladowac.... no po takim tekscie to mi sie odechciewa. wczoraj zadzwonilem zeby sie pozalic, ze nie daje jednak rady, ze zawale ten egzam i wogole, po prostu zeby pozalic sie troche bo trzeba sobie ponarzekac nieraz - a tu uslyszalem, nie no cos ty, dasz rade ale wiesz co musze isc bo cos tam... nozesz...normalnie tak mnie przygasilo ze nie wiem. wogole to obojetna mi jest juz ta moja szkola - chce byc daleko tak bardzo bardzo daleko.... jak stad do wiecznosci... czekam....
glupie rzeczy, a potrafia tak mi dopiec...
Poglaszcz mnie po policzku, powiedz ze bedzie dobrze... tęsknie - -
maybe it's just my impression but my family doesn't care about me for a long time now - they dont call as much they used to, they won't call if I'm not the first one to make that stupid phone call. and then, when they do call I am indifferent to them, it would be nice to talk to them, I mean actually have a real conversation, not like - hey, what are you doing? what's up? I'm calling cause the battery in my mobile is about to die so I want to decharge it...after hearing something like that I say I have enough. I called yesterday to complain a bit, to say that it's too much for me, that I will fail the exam, i called just to bitch for a while - then I hear: don't worry, it will be fine but I have to go now because... I even didn't want to hear the rest...I didn't know what to say. my school becomes VERY indifferent to me lately - I just stopped caring - I want to be away, far far away.... like from here to eternity... I'm waiting...
Stupid things, but they can get on hold of me for so long...
touch my cheek with your gentle hand, and say that it will be okay...
I miss you - - |
